January 8th, 2018
So this is what it’s like
So this is what it’s like to be alone! Well, technically I’ve been alone before, but not long term. Especially not while being married! Some people may consider it easy to be away from their spouse, but it is definitely not easy to be away when your husband is your best friend in the whole entire world! Kent= BFFE
I guess I should catch you up. My husband, Kent, just started his training as a flight attendant! Which is so fantastic!! Couldn’t be more excited for him! However, this requires him to be away for two months at flight attendant boot camp. Ugh! Two whole months!!
My respect for flight attendants has definitely skyrocketed since he has started this whole process. The amount that they get put through?! It’s intense! In case you didn’t know, flight attendants are not put on planes just to help fetch you drinks, they are there as practiced and trained professionals to keep you safe in the event of an emergency. A lot goes into this!! Hence, the need for the boot camp! (It’s not really called that… I don’t think)
I am only in the first week of being alone while he is in training. It’s going ok so far. I just hope it goes fast because I feel it will get harder each week.
It was super rough dropping Kent off at training, knowing I wouldn’t see him for awhile. Let’s just say, lots of tears! But I am also very proud and happy for him! He is a hard worker and he will do so wonderful with this new opportunity!
How I can Grow From This
Being alone gives me a ton of time to think and reflect on life, who I am and what I want. Kent and I have a strong belief that a person should know how to be happy on their own first, and then an added source of strength and happiness (aka a significant other) can only make it go up from there.💕 I don’t believe that all your sense of belonging, happiness, and hope should be in the hands of one person. But, I do believe that one special person can add to that already existing happiness, a joy more special than any other kind!
“Fall in love with yourself first and then find someone to share it with” -Eartha Kitt
This frame of mind will definitely come in handy while he is away. I get to be reminded that I am independent, I am happy, and I am capable! I knew how to be happy in my own company before, and I can do it again. (Hopefully!) But that doesn’t mean I won’t miss him every single day and have an occasional emotional breakdown.🙃 I know I will, and that’s ok. That’s what love does to ya ♥️
I am confident that during this time, I can work on myself and things that bring me joy, rather than focusing on being sad that he is away. This all feels very familiar, considering he and I dated for a while doing long distance, back in the day. People would ask me why we tortured ourselves with long-distance dating, and I always told them, “When HE’S worth it, IT’S worth it”. I still feel that way! He will always be worth it to me.
Let the long distance- face timing begin!
Your Girl SJ
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